Thursday, 16 December 2010 | 8:49 am
We're sure a happy nation of grumblers. & the story continues,
There's a particular type of person I cannot tolerate. I just cant stand people who grumble about how sucky their life is, and how God is unfair to them and why can't they have normal life like anyone else and how they would wanna end their life and stuff. It's okay if they said it once or maybe twice (sometimes life can be really depressing and grumbling about it once in a long while is kinda normal, except for the ending life part), but all the time is really intolerable leh.
They claimed that they have the lousiest life ever and anyone else wouldnt have a life that can be lousier than them, but how do they know they have the worst life in the whole wide world? Their views are totally subjective lah. Everyone else in the world have their own problems in life FOR SURE. Those who didnt complain/grumble doesnt mean they dont have problems in their life, but they chose to look on the brighter side of life. They chose to stay positive even though they have a lousier life than those who complained about them having the lousiest life in the world.
Okay, so now i'm also complaining about these people. -.-
Well, actually i dont mean to grumble about them. All that I just wanna say is that I can't stand myself too.
Yes, I'm one of these people, I really find myself so annoying and irritating.
To be precise, I USED TO be like this lah. I'm better now.
When I look at these people, they remind me of myself in the past, where I used to wanting to end my life and doing all sorts of dramatic stuff like cutting wrist, trying to hang myself, jumping down from the building (jumping from the 4th-storey btw -.-) and banging my head against the wall. I ran away from home, had my parents to search for me and get them worried the whole night when i'm staying at my friend's house till late midnight, not wanting to go home. But somehow my parents always managed to track down my friends' contacts and contact the friend whose house i was staying, and I always get home by the next morning.
LOL. Come to think of it, I find it really funny leh. I think I was really immature then. I remembered being super rebellious too. I cant believe I was soooo mad in the past. I really thank God that I've changed and moved on.
Since I used to be like one of those abnormally negative-thinking and dramatic people, I feel that I have no rights to find them intolerable. I wanna help them and tried helping them and gives them ideas on how to deal with it by looking on the brighter side of life, but their mindset is really FIXED that they refused to do so(they said that they've tried it but it didnt work). And aha, once again i'm not trying to criticize them, because I WAS ONCE LIKE THIS TOO, and now I'm really embarassed by myself that I was once like that. I used to call this particular friend/classmate after school everyday and complained about my life and how i wanna end my life. I cant believe she actually never fails to answer my call everytime i called her and tolerated me for hours through the phone daily sia. (Y)
It seems that I need to be more like her. I wanna be more like her, in fact. I wanna help them.
