I didnt go back to school ytd to collect my testimonial. i've decided to ask my bro to collect it for me, since he's still studying in GMS, which i totally forgot about it till alson the gaykia kinda reminded me. xD

okok, so i will start doing research and read-ups on early childhood and gerontological related stuff once i got it back. since mummy have not call for delivery for The Strait Times, i got to buy newspaper everyday then. sigh.

actually, i think i can do a super good portfolio for the interview, i'm just afraid of the part where they interview me and i got tell them about myself, why do i think i'm good enough for this course and everything. i'll stammer and crack my knuckles during the interview w/o knowin for sure. :\


jiayou, vivian! just try your best lah, you can do it! :)


i'm going to meet sis at orchard at 6pm before going gym. talking about gym, i missed the open house at california fitness ytd. :\ if i were to sign up for membership ytd, i'll get lots of goodies leh. vivi loves goodies. :(
nvm. see if i'll still get goodies today or not, since sis knows one of the staffs in cali fitness pretty well. xD


anw, i was listening to the new songs, and i came accross this song. it's 'stranded' by Jay-Z, Bono, The Edge and Rihanna. I kinda like this song, but not the rapping part by Jay-Z.



[Jay-Z - Chorus]
When the sky falls and the Earth quakes
We gon put this back together
We won’t break
[repeat]

[Jay-Z]
Sak Pase, my Port-Au-Princes
my Haitian Gods and all of my Princesses
Our condolences as you fightin’ against this
we’re right by your side as we tryin’ to make sense of this
heavenly father help us see through these problems
and for those that left, accept them into your garden
so here’s my theory, the country’s already starvin’
so we sacrificed many to shed light on all of them
God please pardon, I speak from the heart
its the only way I see this tragedy befall on them
so lets get involved with them, hand to hand with them
arm to arm with them til they get strong again,
When the sky falls…

(Rihanna and Bono – hook)
Can’t wait until tomorrow(x2)
Haiti a Mi Amor
Haiti, Mon Amour
Not gonna leave you stranded, alone, alone
oh no

[Chorus]

[Jay-Z Verse 2]
Learn from the past, New Orleans was flooded
So we know we just can’t rely on the government
We under the rubble again, here we go rumbling when
When we gon catch a break, my friend lost his mother and then
And then, Carline lost her uncles and them
Buried with no caskets, they just put covers on them
And the tears fall, and we fight back
Story ain’t done, it can’t end like that
Nah not like this, tomorrow’s survivors gonna carry on your name
You live on inside us, your memory’s alive with us
You inspired us, to rebuild this country, you just guide us

[Hook]
[Bono]
It’s not the angels that are on their way
its not the bells of Santa Trinite
people waiting in positions begging
for hands to help not just to pray

[Hook]

[French singing]
Haïti va s’élever
Tu vas te relever
Nous nous éléverons
Ensemble ensemble ensemble

(not gonna leave you stranded…)

[Jay-Z]
we gon put this back together we wont break
we gon put this back together we wont break
we gon put this back together we wont break
we gon put this back together we wont break
[End]


















should i put red or green colour braces? i really cant decide. how? D:




met meimei today to buy her havanas for her b'day gift from me, but she's the one who paid it, because i've got no $$ at all, since i've lost my pouch, so i couldnt even use my atm card. :\ but i'll pay her the $$ back as soon as i got my atm card replaced lah. x)

after that the "movie ppl" came to my house for movie night again. watch "Shorts" which esther rented and the last 30min of "The Incredibles" at Disney Channel.

wah. i fasted 6am-6pm today, and after fasting i didnt have a proper meal. just ate snacks while watching movie and i'm full alr. but it's so so unhealthy. eeee. :\

i've been sleeping so late for the past few days, like 6/7am. i feel like i'm an owl or smth, and i dont like it. i'm going to sleep earlier from today onward, like 2-3am the latest. :)

yeah anw, on the way to my house with esther and yuting before the movie night just now, i was looking out of the window while yuting and esther were chatting. I was worried that i couldnt get into any courses that i've applied through DAE, and so happen when the bus stopped opp St.Hilda school, i saw a verse. It says,


"Be joyful always, pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus." 1 Thessalonians 5:17



i felt peaceful and so much more relieved after reading the verse. just when i'm at my lowest point of life, He never fails to ease our heart when we are worried or down. I'm really glad to know Him. i really am. and of course, the ppl around me whom He've sent to encourage me. Many thanks to those who encouraged me, thru sms and msn, and the movie gang for buying me pooh bear pillow. xD It's so foolish of me to have thought of going to ite. how can. :(



My aunt, who is a catholic, happen to come to my house to pass smth to my mum, so i had a chat with her. she asked me about my posting results. after i told her about it, she encouraged me too, and told me that no matter what course i'll get into, even if i didnt get into early childhood, always give thanks to the Lord. Not able to get into the course that i want may be the wrong path that i've chosen in my life, that's why He's guiding me back to the right path. who knows i might do better. Everything happens for a reason.

Not my will, but yours be done.



"The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song" (Psalm 28:7).


God will provide. He will make a way for me when there seems to be no way.


Thank you God, thank you for everything that You've done. Thank you for many awesome friends and relatives around me.

I love You, God. Your righteousness, goodness and love endure forever. <3




MOE: VIVIAN POH HUI XIN, you are posted to NANYANG POLY, ELECTRONICS, COMPUTER & COMMUNICATIONS ENGG (C89) under 2010 JAE.

i'm totally speechless. it's not even in my 12choices. i don't even know what this course's about. and my JPSAE, it was unsuccessful too. i've got friends who got lousier results than me, but still able to get into those courses they want. and at least they can get into one of their choices.

i wanted to cry so badly, but i just couldnt cry out. i dont know why, and i told my sis about it. she told me because i was too upset about it, thats why i couldnt cry.

but it's no use getting upset at all, not as if i can get into early childhood if i cry for hours.

everything happen for a reason, right?

so i've registered for DAE in tp straight after i saw my message sent by MOE, and am going to fast and pray hard that i'll be able to get in to early childhood, or gerontological course in tp.

after that i went to registered for DAE in nyp, hoping that if i couldnt get in to the courses in tp, i could get in to hospitality & tourism management or social science(but less likely for social science, since the cut-off point is 14).

and i'm going to np tomorrow to register for DAE. i cant imagine myself travelling from tampines to clementi, but yeah, i want to get into early childhood course you see. :\

seriously, i was so prepared to get into ITE when we were waiting for the O' Level results. though my results are lousy, i was glad that i can get into poly. but now. if i really have got no choice but to go to that computer course i'm posted to, i rather i go ite. i really wanna do smth that i'm interested in.

but guess i just got to wait for my results for my DAE first, and prepare my portfolio for interview if i'm accepted by the courses. the advisor even told me to do newspaper cuttings and reflections on those articles. i have to sound convincing enough during the interview. Interview's my biggest fear. when i was talking to the advisor, she kinda gave me a feel of what the interview will be like, and i started getting nervous. when we leave tp, my sis was telling me that i was cracking my knuckles when the advisor interviewed me, and it was so loud that the advisor looks shocked and worried at the same time, and i didnt even know that i've cracked my knuckles! my sis even joked that i may not be selected for early childhood or gerontological cause' the advisor might think that i'll scare the children or the elderlies whenever i cracked my knuckles. CHOYCHOYCHOY! TOUCHWOOD!

yeah anyway, i'm going down to gms to collect my testimonial tmr.

vivi's gonna try her best and not give up. she'll be super prepared for the interview with a super strong portfolio to convince the interviewer. she'll overcome her fear.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, so there's no need to fear! everything's gonna be alright for me. i really believe.




LOL. i woke up t 3.30pm today sia. damn cool right. xD but it's because i slept at 7am. heeeees.
then i'm suppose to meet sis at 6pm in the gym, but i was late(as usual). i reached at 6.50pm i think. then we went 313 for dinner and shopped around. reached home at about 12.30am. i'm so tired now.

i'm so frustrated right now. even my spare phone is spoilt. so irritating lah. so hard to contact ppl. and i need to spend more $$ on transport, since i've lose my ez-link card. **bang head on the wall continuously** :\


To the movie gang. xD LOL.


the trailer for "my bloody valentine":


if you guys wanna watch. it's at 7-9pm on thur. usually it'll end ealier then the time listed, like around 8.30pm the earliest?

oh, and i saw another quite horror movie too.
it's call "mirrors", it's from 9-10.55pm on thur too.
and like i've said, it'll always end earlier than the time listed.
here's the trailer. :)




LOL. but do you guys actually wanna watch horror movies again? xD




lol whoa. i woke up at 2pm in the afternoon, no wonder i cant sleep now. i was suppose to meet sis at 6.30pm to go gym tgt, but i was at home looking for my pouch that has my ez-link card and atm card in it, but i couldnt find it. D:
i thought i left it in mum's car, but it's not in there either. i think i lost my pouch. i'm sooo dead. BOOOOO. :\

so i ended staying at home till 8pm plus, then i left home to watch movie with my aunt and little qiqi @plaza sing. :) i borrowed ez-link card from my bro, since he didnt want to watch with us. and we were late for the movie. -.-




HEYYYYYY.
yeah ever since my macbook was spoilt(i'm sure some of you knw why xD), i've been using my bro's macbook. then he got irritated. then since my sis' got a macbook and a fujitsu laptop, she gave her fujitsu one to me. HAHAHAHA, so i'll be using an old laptop for the time being. and i'm soooo used to using macbook, i kinda have difficulty using those normal laptop. -.- yeah anw, my family went to sis' bf's muscle and fitness war competition(smth like that) and supported him yesterday. WHOA. many many many muscular MANNNNNN. :O loss for words.. wasn't use to looking at so many macho guys with only their swimming trunks ONLY.
yeah anw, i'm soo proud of him, really am! cause he got into the 4th place. COOOOOOOL right? :D
but he was super sadddddd. :(
haiya, this is your first time joining this cometition and you got into 4th place leh! top 10 can! or top5, sounds nicer!
next year or two years later when you sign up for this competition again, i confirm you get into top 3 alr lah. then you'll be famous. :)

after that, we went to pizza hut with his two friends and her mum to celebrate. i ate a garlic bread, and 3slices of pizza! well, considering that i've only drank yakult and ate only 1 small slice of dried mango the day before, two slices of plain softmeal bread for breakfast today and skipped lunch, 3slices of pizza for dinner aren't that much right.
























sigh. i cant sleep. not that i cant sleep, just that i do not want to go to bed. because recently, i just can't stop thinking about the past. those happy times we had tgt. i was looking at my old post, then i was looking at yours too. then i became emotional. i really really miss you. how did it even turn out this way. i really really wanna get crazy and have fun with you again, really. and i know it's impossible. and i still wanna keep in contact with you, and meet up with you, but i dont know how. i know it would be awkward if we were to meet up, or even happen to see each other on the street someday, but i just dont know why, i still wanna stay in contact with you, forever and ever. when we became super close, i've start to learn how to accept the way one is, because i didnt really like how you do things at times. i accept the way you are, though sometimes it's really hard for me to do so. and now, when i try to let you go, knowing that it's almost impossible to salvage our friendship, i realise that deep deeep down in my heart, i still treat you as my best friend, and it's kinda hard to forget you.
do you rmb whenever i hug you, i'll start crying? i rmb you were there when i had my accident, the first person(other than the paramedic) i saw was you when i became conscious in the ambulance. but now. how did it even turn out this way. what really happen, i really cannot rmb. maybe smth happened and it was my fault. i dont know. i used to think we will be best friends for manymany years down the road. it's just not the same anymore.

guess your blog and your fb are the only two ways to contact you in future. i know i have your phone no, but i guess that you'll not reply my sms, right?


anyhow, i still wanna tell you that i still <3 you.

i think you've left a scar in my heart, maybe the next time when i happen to see you on the street someday, dont be shocked if i suddenly go over to hug you and cry okay.



"everytime i sit and ask myself, how did love slipped away?"


i cherish our friendship alot,i really do.





Huimin taught me how to put on contacts when i go to her house. i brought my green clour contacts there and was super excited and nervous at the same time. LOL.




I realise i've been thinking alot recently, which got me feeling moody, especially ytd. and poor bro, got to bear with my tepmer on the way to gym thru the phone. during and after gym too. i think he couldnt take it and gave me attitude too. but during the train ride home, i decided not to be such a mood spoiler and stopped being so annoying. And so i took out my storybook to read, while he played with his ipod touch, and whenever he talked to me, i'll just try my best to reply nicely.
Hmph.
Yeah anyway, so i'm going to gym later with bro before meeting huimin. hees. oh, and movie night @ my house! almost forgot. -.-

P.S Ah, and i've cut my fringe and trimmed my hair, only. :)

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