Saturday, 11 December 2010 | 8:43 am
& the story continues,
I dont understand why I get so nervous so easily, though I may not show it. In school, with friends, and everywhere else where i need to communicate with many people. I realised I always get mental block almost all the time, even when i'm talking to friends. Okay, I shall convinced myself that it's
ALL IN THE MIND, which I think it's kinda true though. Everytime I got to present in class, I never fail to screw it all up. And I believed I blushed everytime I go up to present, cause i can feel blood gushing up to my face each time I present/give speech. And although I ended up looking clumsy and made everyone laughed, it doesnt ease me from feeling less nervous. I feel more embarrassed in fact, which in turn gave me mental block.
Honestly speaking, I always feel that people will look down on me after I present because I presented lousily, and I think that's why I feel so lousy and embarrassed of myself everytime I present/gave speech, or speak up, thus feeling less confidence each time.
Had OMEP storytelling meeting with the other OMEP members who signed up for it and practiced storytelling. It's really challenging to me mann, I cant imagine reading in front of so many kids in the library. :\ And i'm also gonna help out in MYMCA. Currently serving in children church every sat somemore. I'll probably will break down and cry lor, or i'll probably have heart attack that i got to do all these so often, but i'm still gonna try.
I feel so stressed. Tsk I always get so stressed so easily leh.
But it's probably
all in the mind, again.
