Sunday, 24 January 2010 | 12:59 am
maybe it's true that i can't live without you. & the story continues,
HEYYYYYY.
yeah ever since my macbook was spoilt(i'm sure some of you knw why xD), i've been using my bro's macbook. then he got irritated. then since my sis' got a macbook and a fujitsu laptop, she gave her fujitsu one to me. HAHAHAHA, so i'll be using an old laptop for the time being. and i'm soooo used to using macbook, i kinda have difficulty using those normal laptop. -.- yeah anw, my family went to sis' bf's muscle and fitness war competition(smth like that) and supported him yesterday. WHOA. many many many muscular MANNNNNN. :O loss for words.. wasn't use to looking at so many macho guys with only their swimming trunks ONLY.
yeah anw, i'm soo proud of him, really am! cause he got into the 4th place. COOOOOOOL right? :D
but he was super sadddddd. :(
haiya, this is your first time joining this cometition and you got into 4th place leh! top 10 can! or top5, sounds nicer!
next year or two years later when you sign up for this competition again, i confirm you get into top 3 alr lah. then you'll be famous. :)
after that, we went to pizza hut with his two friends and her mum to celebrate. i ate a garlic bread, and 3slices of pizza! well, considering that i've only drank yakult and ate only 1 small slice of dried mango the day before, two slices of plain softmeal bread for breakfast today and skipped lunch, 3slices of pizza for dinner aren't that much right.
sigh. i cant sleep. not that i cant sleep, just that i do not want to go to bed. because recently, i just can't stop thinking about the past. those happy times we had tgt. i was looking at my old post, then i was looking at yours too. then i became emotional. i really really miss you. how did it even turn out this way. i really really wanna get crazy and have fun with you again, really. and i know it's impossible. and i still wanna keep in contact with you, and meet up with you, but i dont know how. i know it would be awkward if we were to meet up, or even happen to see each other on the street someday, but i just dont know why, i still wanna stay in contact with you, forever and ever. when we became super close, i've start to learn how to accept the way one is, because i didnt really like how you do things at times. i accept the way you are, though sometimes it's really hard for me to do so. and now, when i try to let you go, knowing that it's almost impossible to salvage our friendship, i realise that deep deeep down in my heart, i still treat you as my best friend, and it's kinda hard to forget you.
do you rmb whenever i hug you, i'll start crying? i rmb you were there when i had my accident, the first person(other than the paramedic) i saw was you when i became conscious in the ambulance. but now. how did it even turn out this way. what really happen, i really cannot rmb. maybe smth happened and it was my fault. i dont know. i used to think we will be best friends for manymany years down the road. it's just not the same anymore.
guess your blog and your fb are the only two ways to contact you in future. i know i have your phone no, but i guess that you'll not reply my sms, right?
anyhow, i still wanna tell you that i still
<3 you.
i think you've left a scar in my heart, maybe the next time when i happen to see you on the street someday, dont be shocked if i suddenly go over to hug you and cry okay.
"everytime i sit and ask myself, how did love slipped away?"
i cherish our friendship alot,i really do.
